06192012- Your love is weak
Once again i suck at blogging but let's just say that the time from my last one have sucked. Right now my life is a roller-coaster... I've been trying to figure some stuff out which haven't been easy, but I'm tired of running away from my problems so today I start dealing with them, starting with my sister..
I've been living in jkp with her ever since I've been home but I haven't enjoyed it at all, I miss my soccer way to much! I need to play soccer thats my life! So I have to move back home..
This year will be interesting since things didn't turned out the way I wanted I had to improvise so now I don't know what I will do. But there is no point in worrying, I have the whole world as my playground and for once I have nothing holding me back! Time to start living the life!
05082012- Home sweet home, summer i miss you!
So much things have happened since last time, i just havent had the time to blog.
First of all, Im HOME, back in Sweden with my family and friends, not that i have seen any of them, only my family. Other then that i was pulled right into work. Since my sister fixed so i could work with her i now live in Jönköping with her and her boyfriend. This summer can ba interesting. But so far i like the job, i meet new people everyday so im happy.
Before i came home i was in D.C with my amazing friend Kaitlin. I miss her so much already and i had a great time there, i will soo go back and visit, maybe in the fall. D.C is super nice, and it made me realize im a big city girl and also that Kaitlin is by far one of the best ive ever met. We smoked hooka, drank margatitas, swam in the pool, saw all the big buildings, ( exept from the whitehouse which is small), learned how to use the bus/ metro, visited her school, hanged out with her friends, ate nice food, walked a lot, and ate ice cream in Alexandria ( my favorit part)
A good end of my first year in USA
05062012- My year in college!
My first year in college in the states are done, and ive done so much, its insane. On the flight home i tried to remember what ive done and ill make a list, a list that wont include everything since some stuff never should be mentioned ever again, what happens in college stays in college. But here is some stuff:
* Been in New York
*Ive playing a lot of beerpong
* Played college soccer
*Eaten my first thanks giving dinner
*Been in Orlando
*Been in Tampa
*Been in Mexico
*Had a spring break ala USA
*Swimming in the atlantic ocean in novermber
* Swimming in a fresh spring
* Kicked CNU 5-0
* Been in D.C
* Partied ala College
* Played sernior game
* Been at a gay club (orlando)
*Met some amazing people (ex, Kaitling,Shannon, Susanna, Charlie, Ant, Leslie, David)
* Flying alone
*Had a crazy Halloween
* Tried new nasty food
*Met people from all over the world (germany, Colombia, Austrailia, England, France)
* Had a fourloca
*Watched american football game
*Watched Super Bowl
*Watched College Basketball, Baseball, Softball, Soccer etc
*Been close to winning the conference
* Taken piercings (12)
* Got tattoos (4)
* Done "midnight madness"
* Experienced a college preseason
* Fallen in love with weight lifting
*Experianced an earthquake
* School closed due to snow
* Played dead
The list is not even covering all of it. But one thing is sure, ive had so much fun and i dont regret going!
04232012- Maybe im just in love with you, when you wake me up.
Wow, two finals done (english paper and art test) and tomorrow is the worst test of them all, macroeconomics! Ive been studying since 9 am to 10 pm at school and it still doesnt feel like in know a shit.. So its going to be a long night and a early morning to get the "easy" information as Dr Thai says, into my head..
What else, well ive got 2 more days at Averett University and ive just started to realize that some of the people here, i might never see again.. But i know that the ones im going to keep in touch with is the ones i want in my life, and ill def. going to visit them..
Just hoping im attending Tampa next fall cuz then it would be so much easier to travel here in the states. And i cant wait to start playing soccer again, i miss it sooo much! Feels like a part of me is missing when i dont play.. So i cant wait to go home now and finally be able to focus on my workouts and soccer! No more study just soccer, just the way i want it to be!!
Well i better go back to macro. Tomorrow will be study study study day too, but then fun classes, History and Math! YEY
Im Done Chasing You!
- You Dont Have To Chase Me, Cuz Im Standing Still!
04192012- someone else is getting the best of you
Im now done with 11 hours of studying. Great and tomorrow i have to go back and study some more. Tomorrow is also the first day of my finals. It starts up chill with just handing in an english essay. Which ive been working on for like ever now.. Feel pretty good, i did it sunday but woke up this morning and felt i needed to redo it so thats what ive been doing. Heard it was a good one so i might get an A in that class which means im one step closer to Tampa, so im happier than ever!!
Well going to hit the bed because tomorrow its back to school work, and then im gonna have a suuuper fun time! Ive decided im gonna have a great time now before i leave! So tomorrow i go for CRAZY FUN! Tomorrow the sky's the only limit for me!
04182012- Its more fun when its all about me!
Wow, i dont know what to say. Today was my last classes at Averett Univeristy and i feel weird. Im actually going to miss Averett, the people are ok and the soccer is amazing. It just hit me i never going to walk into those classrooms again, never talk to the teachers again and ill probably never going to see some of the people ever again.. Its kinda sad actually. But im aiming for something bigger, i want University of Tampa.
Im going to miss some people more than others thats for sure, but those people im actutally going to stay in touch with and hopefully visit.
Well now its time o go back to school and get some help with my english paper, i need an A on it so i have a bigger chanse to actually get in to Tampa.
04172012- Sports Banquet
Tomorrow is my last day with classes at Averett University.
What the future brings, we'll see!
I'd like to be everything you want
My new infatuation: Justin Biebers new song Boyfriend
You make it so easy.
You make it so easy... to forget about you. Happiness was all i wanted but along with it you brought sadness, counfusion and madness! Everytime i thought this time would be different your action took me back to the old days. Instead of going forward we're standing on the sarting line, we cant move forward or backward, we're just standing there paralyzed with the finishline fading more and more away from us. I could almost reach it, i could feel how the happy ending filled me up, but then just in the blink of an eye i was pulled back down to the darkness of our love.
I wish i could bury my sadness in the ocean of tears and i wish i could free our happy moments in the wind of life.
You make it so easy to forget you my love, so easy to erase you out of my world.
04162012- lets risk it all, who knows you might be a winner after its done
A lot of things are going on right now, the last week before finals so have a looot to do. And today beside all my homework i had to do physical and photo with my team ive been coaching. My planning suck thats for sure, because its 11 pm and im sitting and study math when i should be asleep to my 8 am class tomorrow.
Well the sun is here, its hot and i love it! The weather is amazing, and tomorrow there is the Athletic Banquet, so im happy about that too..
Now back to math, have to get an A.
Jag ser allt i dina ögon
och jag ser allt i dina ögon, allt du inte vågar berätta.
jag förstår inte varför, eller vad du vill säga
men jag ser det så tydligt
jag känner doften av det så starkt
och jag känner det så hårt.
dina ögon berättar för mycket, för mycket som skrämmer mig
och jag undrar om jag verkligen vågar, se det du inte vill visa
men jag försvinner inte
för jag stannar för alltid
och jag lämnar dig inte, för din blick kommer ändå följa mig vart jag än går
det finns så mycket du vet, så lite du förstår,
men jag lyssnar inte, utan ser det jag lärt mig se.
och jag ser allt i dina ögon, trots att du inte vågar berätta.
I fear the day when i have to say goodbye to you!
04152012- Along with happiness comes sadness, or at least thats how it is between us
In 20 days im landing on Swedish ground, 20 day, thats insane! Cant wait, im done with this place right now, or wait noo i have 2 more weeks here in Danvegas, 2 weeks of styding and final exams. Then off to DC to my KB. She's gonna show me the city both in daylight and night. Going to be so much fuuun!
I had the funniest skype time with Pantzar the other day and he made me feel so happy, and he also made me realize what i need, my friends at home. He also showed me the coolest shit ever, i thought i was going to die when i read it, its so crazy funny
Youre the happiness in my life!
04092012- not too long
Now im heading over to Julianna so we can go and hang out with my boys Jimbo and Tyler. Weiii After that, this week will be dedicated to school. In two weeks i have my first exam and then in three weeks im done with school, done with Averett. It all went so fast, but soon im home in sweden with my family and friends. But first im gonna fix this three weeks and then some days in DC with KB. So one fun night before hell starts!
Wise words from a hot guy!
03222012- All i want is happiness!
They say parting is such sweet sorrow, but wouldnt it be nice if just for once it didnt have to be?
New York 2011, Happiness!
03182012- I found my love!
"Go out and find what you love, and then fill your life with it as much as possible, because in the end you will remember the things you love more than the things you didnt"
I found my love a couple of years ago, and nothing have ever even been close to it. This weekend just made me realized what i want with my love. I want TAMPA University, the school, the place but mostly my big time love the soccer!
I dont know how to describe it, but i felt so good when i was there looking at Univeristy of tampa. It felt like this is my place, i could see myself live there. The school was super nice, pretty and super. The soccer was the best, i felt happy during the whole time. I didnt wanna leave the place. All i have to do now is to wait and see what happens. I really really wanna go there, so badly!
Ill show some picture from it when i have time, now i have to start my HARD workout!
Life is good when you have a soccer ball at your feet! Thats what i call happiness!
I keep doing it over and over again!
I never learn! I keep doing the same misstake over and over again.. Right now I'm a mess, i have way to much things on my mind. I guess i have to start taking stuff away. There is one person i need right now and thats my sister, i miss being able to call her, she always know what to say and she is the best listener ever.
I dont know what to do, or i know exactly what i need to do but why is it so hard to do?! If i stay in this situation i make the misstake i promised myself i would never make again, but if i end it im afraid i will make a misstake of letting go.. So what ever i chooes i end up making a misstake. This is the part I hate the most.. I dont know, maybe i should just stop making promises to myself. But whats the piont... Everything is so messed up, to many people are involved. I dont want it but at the same time i dont want to say goodbye to it..
I guess this is what people mean when they say life's not fare!
02282012-A silent heart ticking under the ground
A good day today, a lot of workouts so im happy. Had my first Visual art test this morning and i think i did super baaad! So next time i really really need to study more. After that, i had math and i really really like math, as long as its not to easy. Around 11 i went to the gym at north and did some lifting till 1 when i had soccer class. Which is soooo fun! Nothing will ever beat how i feel when i play soccer thats for sure. When i got home i went over to Marina and we went out for a run, which was nice tho the weather was amazing. Ended my workouts with some abs outside of Fugate (a doormhouse) Then i went and hung out with Shannon for a while. And now im home. Gonna start studying for my macro test on friday! And after that im off for spring break! Gonna be super, i need to come away and clear my head and get some new energy for the last month here.
A silent heart ticking under the ground, Taking the weight of which has yet to be found. If you can hear me now, why dont you recall? I was the one who cared after all!
02262012-Now youre just somebody that i use to know
It feels like im only doing sunday blogs nowadays. But thats when i do have time to do this. Cuz the other days im up with school work. I had my second math test last thursday and hopefully i did good, i hope i do. cuz i really really wanna get an A in math. Other than that, KB was here again, she pretty much lives here, me liiike! Ended up with us being the party ppl again. And i had fuun, i wasnt that drunk so it was nice. Started up at Davids house, went to the freshmens house, and then over to JP's as always. I had fun, even tho my girl almost got into a fight with one of my team mates but it was ok after they talked. Jp's was ok but i got really bored to i left and hung out with Shannon instead. Around 3 i left and was walking home, but i meet my sweet David, haha we took the car. Picked KB up and drove to MC and Sheets for food. And KB as sooo drunk, and when she ordered, i dont even know how to explain it. But i havent laught so much in such a long time. Me and KB was home around 5-6 and then we talked to Scott in phone till we fell asleep. Woke up and she had to leave, but she is coming back on thursday cuz on saturday we're leaving for MEXICO!
Saturday was chill, we had tacos here, Me, Victoria, Julianna and Marina. Then we went to the apartments to drink, i was sober so i just laughed at the other people. I has fun, they were funny as shiiit. After a while Shannon called and asked if u wanted to come by so i left. Hanged out with her a while, haha she was soo drunk. Crazy girl. Then i went back to the apartments to see what happened down there. Ended up with a hudge fight (like always) so i left, My friend knowledge fought some other boys over a chick and i was like "cmon, its not worht it" and the stupidest thing is that this fight have been going on for like 6 month now, LET IT GOOOO! But went back to Shannon and then i went home. Thank god for Bryian, he drown me cuz i didnt wanna walk home after everything. Other than that is was a fun weekend.
The weeather is craazy here, last monday we had snow, this friday i was walking in shorts and tshirt and was sooo hooot! Thats what i love with Averett, when the weather is awesome everyone is sitting outside at the tables and everyone is talking to everyone. I even played American football with some guys.
I hope the heat is staying for ever nooow!
02202012- What just happened?!
I had a looong weekend, due to some snow, like 5 cm the school closed today so i had one day extra, which was super nice.
This weekend KB was here too, started up with party on friday, and lets just say i dont know what happened, its was a craazy weekend thats for sure. But it ended up me going home early, so i kinda missed the party. But some nice pic with my awesome friends!
I dont know whats going on in Danville right now but everything is going dooown, the cops comes all the time and now they are getting stupid and asking for ID, people are fighting eachother (baadly too) and i dont know. Stuff that happens here in US never happens in my town. Its soo weeird but fucked up too. But i had fun during the time i was there! My friends makes every day over heret thats for sure.
So saturday then, i woke up and puked the whole day, couldnt eat anything, so i spend the whole day in bed, which suucked, went to bed with fever, woke up on sunday with fever again and felt shiiit. Spend one more day in bed, and then the snow came so i didnt mind actually. On the evening i went to campus and hangd out with Shannon, and later Julianna, Marina and Victoria.
Went to bed feeling some better, woke up today and felt shit again.. Been up and down, no energy at all in my body. Gosh i really hate being sick. And i normally never get ill. Well schools back on tomorrow and i have so much stuff i need to do. And KB is still here and she is leaving tomorrow and then coming back on thursday. Like i said it was a craazy weekend.
But now its back to my workouts and school! Because its less than 2 weeks till i go to MEXICOO!
02122012- This is how I show my love
...... I dont know what to write, well im getting super pissed at my O on my computer cuz its fucked up and dont wanna work sometimes! Other than that its fine, school is school, and now we practicing 4 times a week with the team and then i have soccer class 2 times a week so i play soccer 6 times a week and then i do my lifting and my other things so im happy! What im afraid of is that NCAA wont approve my stuff i eat to get stronger but we'll see, im gonna talk to Steve (athletic trainer) tomorrow and maybe he have an answer.
This weekend was paaarty weekend, like always here but this time i didnt drink. And i had fun anyway actually. Had to take care of Dom cuz he as super drunk but other than that i had fun. But apparently last night JP had a party and some dudes got into a fight and one of them went to jail and the only way to get him out was if someone bailed him out for $1000 = 7000kr- only in america!
What else, not much going on right now. Hopefully ill have more things about my fall this week, i cant waait!
Well i guess ill just go back to study then, its not like i have a lot to write.
02062012- She'd dream of Paradise
KB left today and now its four weeks till we meet again but then we're going to MEXICO so im happy.
Last night i watched my first Super Bowl, and i have to say i enjoyed it a lot. Its super american. We went to Ashley, Lupo and Laura and ate a looot of food and snacks and stuff. And we where a bunch of people watching there so it was super fun. And the New York Giants won! So Lupo was super happy. I had a blast so next year ill watch it again.
And Madonna sang in the break and yeah everything was nice, i guess im turining into an american more and more.
Other than that, today i was in school, and then i went to North and did some lifting before soccer practice, DAMN i hate my left foooooot. Today it sucked really bad, and coach just laughed at me cuz i was saying some really bad things. She was like " i dont think i wanna know what you say, i can imagine what it means!" Thats the best with being swedish, i can say super bad word without people knowing what it means. After that i went to the fitness center and ran some and did some abs. Im in a good flow now, Spring break here i come!
And today i got clearance, i can now start my project for my future. So im gonna get off and start working on it. Keeping you updated. Fall 2012 here i come !
02052012- Crazy, yes thats my name !
This weekend was a KB weekend so friday was party, and it was fun. Since it was four weeks to Mexico we decided to have a Mexican night, so we ate mexican food and then drank mexican beer and tequila! Over all the night was super nice. But towards the end it was so much drama, people were angry at each other and people were jealous and yeah i dont know. And i dont know whats going on with the recruits that comes here, last week the recruit got sooo drunk so he passed out, this weekend they got so high and made out with the nastiest girls ever! And one of them were super nice, but not a good start when being a recuit. Well I had fun and i think KB did too so.
Saturday was chill for us, i got my new tattoo and piercings. So now i have 13 piercings and 2 tattoos. So i guess i have to take a break from it. Plus this tattoo did hurt, i have it behind my ear and damn sometimes it felt like he puched a knife into my head. And the worst part is that i have to go back and get it filled in, since its white ink. It was so red when i did it so he couldnt see so to make sure its filled in good i have to go back there. Pain pain pain! But its hoooot! And its gonna be even more nice when i get a tan from Mexico. The cool part is that in blacklight you can see it, cuz it become like white light on it.
And i did the 3 ear piercings i wanted before too, so i have a red ear too. Haha
my piercings and how white ink tatto can look like. Not mine*
Other than that, we went to JP and KB drank some. I went home around 12-1 and slept until KB came and slept at my place. And once again drama, so tired of it so i just stopped caring by now.
01312012-I want it, I need it, I crave it
Back on track, school and workout, today i did insanity and then ran some which is super nice.. Then me, Kevin, Dom and Gerron did some math, cuz on thursday i have my first test for this semester, and its in math and i better get an A. Then on friday i have macroeconomics test, i dont know where to start. But ill talk to Perny and she have to help me. But first math!
Im looking at taking a new tattoo, KB is making me super exited! haha I have looked at some things, but i still dont know what i want. Maybe in my ear, or i just take piercings. I guess ill see what the weekend have to offer me. But since KB is coming i know its gonna ba crazy.
Both are super hoot! But i dont know. Need some more thinking thats for sure.
What else, yeah since my coach forced me to have one day off yesterday ( a day that killed me) i cant wait to start this week with a LOT of workouts.
Now back to math!